Saturday, April 18, 2009

DRAFT: Perfect Day

Originally written April 5, 2009

Just a perfect day
You made me forget myself
I thought I was someone else
Someone good


Believe it or not, I am doing some work between updates. I'm hungry with nothing but goat's milk in the house. Ooh, and popcorn!


The cats and I lie on the bed, talking, and not talking. We can not talk for hours.


Today's date was nice.


Have updated yet more photos of Russia, but now I'm out of space on Flickr for the month.


Have some popcorn to pop.



  • Perfect Day, Lou Reed

DRAFT: omg omg omg!

Originally written July 6, 2008
Was afraid it would be discovered that I had watched Doctor Who instead of got to Delhi

I'm at a huge cliffhanger for Doctor Who, and it seems the next episode is really long so it's taking a long time to download, which means I'm going to be late getting into Delhi, but OMG OMG OMG what is going to happen? This is important. I'm glad that even with my daily panics, I still have my priorities straight.

DRAFT: oh crap!

Originally written November 29, 2007
Thought implicating that there is a "not nice kind of Christian" might be offensive to some.

I'm studying, I really am! But I'm also googling someone that I think I accidentally agreed to go on a date with tomorrow.

And now I have to decide: is it worse if he likes me (and it is in fact a date?) or if he's trying to get me one-on-one to proselytize (because Google tells me he is very Christian)? In fact, I think it's much worse if he likes me. Because he looks like the nice kind of Christian. And what's worse than hurting the feelings of the nice kind of Christian?

Grr! I have nothing to distract myself from unpleasant things. I only have a finite number of things to do:
  1. worry about this date.
  2. worry about this exam.
  3. study for this exam (while worrying about the date and exam).
  4. clean the apartment (living in squalor again...one of those months)
  5. listen to Low and cry all night!
  6. eat more fish sticks
  7. eat more cheese sticks
  8. read the books i bought as presents and thereby have to buy new presents.

Wait, my list is improving with every step! Soon it will tell me I have the option to listen to Gillian Welch till the sun rises! Oh, but it is also telling me I have the option to fail statistics unnecessarily, and it's only optional if I complete item 3.

Dammit.

DRAFT: stuff your heart with steel wool and tin foil

Originally written September 27, 2007
Don't remember where I was going with this title

DRAFTS roundup

I have gone back through my files and found half-finished posts and things that I decided not to update for whatever reason. Of those, I selected a few that made the cut, as far as not being as horrible as the others. This was somehow less work than actually making an update. I will have one more major draft dust-off tomorrow, when I will try to explain the enigma that is my dad. I've been keeping this one in storage for a while.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Quote

So, I've been home 24 hours now. It's been quite a 24 hours. But my favorite part was this quote, which was apropos to almost nothing.

"Did I tell you I got a letter published in Bladder News?"
-Mom

Friday, April 10, 2009

featuring: hyperlinks!

if you're single and looking out
you must raise your prayer to a shout

Taking my own advice to Sirena, I will try to link to some version of the songs I quote. From now on.

I dreamed of Little Dude (former roommate's cat). He was soft, and sweet, and laid himself out like a squirrel skin to be furminatored. Sorry, I should have put this in the dreams journal, per regulation.

I'm going to see the hypnotist in a few minutes, and have no idea what to ask him for. I keep thinking of awesome things to ask for, like a day at the spa, but then I remember--he's not Santa Claus. I made the appointment a few weeks ago when my brain was broken. But now...well, I broke it the opposite way, and that seems to have solved problems.

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

This is your left, that's your left
This is your, that's your left!
This is your right, that's your right
This is your right, you're gonna die!

Cutest conversation with Ladybird, I love her:

Me: Did you just...put a mouse on my back?
Ladybird: Maybe...
Me: You DID put a mouse on my back! Why did you do that?
Ladybird: Throw the mouse.
Me: OK, I'll throw the mouse. There it goes.
Ladybird: [fetches mouse] I got your mouse for you. Let me put it on your back...
Me: Don't put that mouse on my...!! [sigh] ...back.

[repeat]

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

a fever of love

Later,when you face old age and its natural conclusion
your courage will still be shown in the little ways,
each spring will be a sword you'll sharpen,
those you love will live in a fever of love,
and you'll bargain with the calendar
and at the last moment
when death opens the back door
you'll put on your carpet slippers
and stride out.

I don't know what to say about today. Each spring will be a sword I sharpen. I like that.

I helped give a presentation (OK, I did the powerpoint, but it was a freaking awesome powerpoint, with complicated animations, and a cute frog picture). Tomorrow is my least favorite day, with a 9am class. But on top of that, right after it's done, I have a 2 hour tutorial to teach and a group meeting for (yet another) presentation to go to right after that. I'm taking care of a friend's cats for the weekend. One of them is named after a character from Battlestar Galactica, so that's cool (or IS it?). The friend came over to drop her key off, and my cats loved her so much!

I'm washing all the dishes from Neverending Story last night. It was lovely! I know lots of good people. To the diary!

  • from "Courage," by Anne Sexton

Monday, April 06, 2009

I am an orphan on God's highway
but I'll share my troubles if you'll go my way

Doom! DOOM! I lay in bed for an extra hour, trying to think of something good (see last entry). Finally S-- called, and then M--, and those were good enough things for me, even though M called about work stuff.

Then I thought of cold fronts, and daffodils, and my cats, and a future of possibilities, and being able to listen to PJ Harvey and Gillian Welch all I want, and wearing sandals with sweaters because it's spring in Texas, and being almost done with school, and things weren't so very bad. And I thought of my new diary, which is a lot cheaper than a therapist. In fact, I'm going to go write in it now.

  • Orphan Girl, Gillian Welch