oh for god's sake. this is at least the third night in a row i've been woken up by a nightmare. last night it was multiple nightmares. tonight's somehow translates into this all-encompassing existential horror, so not only am i filled with sorrow at my own body's hopeless decay around me, but i'm terrified there's an already-decayed reanimated corpse under my bed, waiting. to reclaim its life.