merry christmas

i got a camera!

willie got mortal kombat vs. dc universe for the xbox

we all got german apple pancakes from mom

who can save us now that god's gone mad?

• From my brow she brushed my hair
  Like grass from tiny grave

i was going to update something, but apparently my dinner is ready.

• so bad, baby dee

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no nightmare!

I didn't have a nightmare last night! I slept on the downstairs sofa, and I woke up with three cats pinning me down under the yoga blanket that was keeping me warm. Maybe the cats are like dreamcatchers....hey, now that I think of it, the dreamcatcher that's usually in my room seems to be missing. Hmmmm....this could explain everything! Everything except why dreamcatchers work. That's a mystery for the ages.

Trying to be inspired by Katia's ability to work on a paper while granddad-sitting. Especially when much smaller thing seem to defeat me--e.g. the existence of brownies in the house, the playing of pedal steel guitar downstairs, the fact that I don't want to write the paper.

The couch was very uncomfortable, and now I have a stiff neck. I can't possibly write a paper with a stiff neck. But I have a conference call in 2 hours.

weird

OK, is this too weird? An nightmare of an existential crisis + scary skeletons? I feel like I'm still dreaming this matches my experience of last night so exactly:

http://www.cracked.com/article_16913_kids-say-most-existentially-terrifying-things.html

you have no (0) undead messages

OK, tonight, I will not dream of death. Promise to myself.

nightmares

oh for god's sake. this is at least the third night in a row i've been woken up by a nightmare. last night it was multiple nightmares. tonight's somehow translates into this all-encompassing existential horror, so not only am i filled with sorrow at my own body's hopeless decay around me, but i'm terrified there's an already-decayed reanimated corpse under my bed, waiting. to reclaim its life.

ukulay-lay

This should be the ukulele show. It is probably my favorite that I have recorded. I made my whole family listen to it.

I got another TA appointment, for the next level of quantitative analysis! Working for someone who may be the future mayor of Austin! Woah! Lucky me, except I'm a little freaked that I don't know anything about this class. It would be easier to TA for undergrads. But this appointment will certainly be simpler than my previous appointment.

Home is still lovely. Drank a bitter margarita as my brother and I shopped on Magazine. Failed utterly at Jeopardy. Made my whole family listen to my radio show. Lunched with my mom and her friend. Will go to work with my mom tomorrow (teaching at a school) and will hang out with K tomorrow night probably. But at some point, I need to write up a 20 page report during all this. Oops. Should have planned better. I guess I could be doing that right now, but I'd rather read Dead Until Dark.

This blog is a liability. No one should be able to find out how irresponsible I am.

Got home, crashed by 10, and, typically, woke up at 3. Terrible nightmare. But interesting. Can't decide if I should try to go back to sleep (after 2 truffles and an apple and a few TV shows) or just stay up till yoga in 6 hours.

There's this bizarre whirring noise in the neighborhood. I can't figure it out. Not that I'm going to go out and check.

Special thanks to Andy, Nora, my family, my insurance company and Katy for talking me through the sleepiest parts of the drive. And of course to Mika's music. God that album is just fantastic!

Xander is so thrilled to see me it brings tears to my eyes. I should never have left him.