So, I'm bailing this town
or
Tearing it down
or
Probably more like hanging around

This weekend (and I'm including today) is dead to me now. We shall never speak of it. We shall regroup, replan, repair. Listen to "I Don't Love Anyone" by Belle and Sebastian, and escape. Tonight we shall watch a movie. Tonight we shall study and sleep, and escape one more time. We shall not have nightmares. We shall not stay up late upset about things.

Weekend, you suck, but you didn't win.

• Ghost World, Aimee Mann

In which I am like my cat

wait wait wait wait wait wait wait
for the time it takes a heart to mend a break
how many moons are reflected in the lake
can you wait forever if time is all it takes

Ladybird, before she left, loved her feathertoy. Her every thought was about that little fluffball on a string. I would pick her up, and her head would immediately whip around to where the feathertoy was stored, shoulder-height to me. She would beg and plead every time I was home to make it move around, the way she liked.

I went out looking for her one night when she was gone, and I brought the feathertoy with me. I was posting flyers, so I put it in my back pocket, and it must have fallen out. Ladybird was going to be devastated, I could tell.

Then she came back, and she only has a vague recollection of the feathertoy, but her head still whips around to where it used to hang when I say "feathertoy" or pick her up. She gets a dim look in her eyes and grudgingly turns her attention back to me when she realizes that place to which she is mysteriously drawn is strangely empty.

I got her another feathertoy, but I haven't told her yet. It's not the same kind, but it's very nice, and has real feathers (or fake feathers, but they look like feathers, and not a chewed up bit of fluff).

I am the same way. I waited 2 weeks for an email that never came, and my eyes still flick down to the folder it would be filtered to every time I log in. It's gotten to the point where I don't remember right away why I'm doing it, I just have a vague sense of disappointment that the folder is empty.

• Beep Beep Song, Simone White

Oh how long it will take
Till she sees the mistake
She has made?

Listening to some old-school Beatles. It's amazing how many covers they did at the beginning, considering what amazing songwriters they were.

Saw Adventureland last night, and also took a shower AND a bath. And washed all my clothes and sheets and towels. Feel better now. Kitchen is only slightly messy, too, so I feel like my life is in order. I even read the chapter I was supposed to have read for a presentation meeting tonight, though I didn't take notes or do the powerpoint slides I have to get done. I figure that's what today is for (after my date).

• "Baby's in Black," the Beatles.

eyelash extensions

Rose is my colour and white
Pretty mouth, and green my eyes

My makeover was fantastic! I'm totally a convert to eyelash extensions. They hurt and took a long time, but look now!

Awesome! I even bought makeup to replace the makeup I had (c. 2001).

I got the new PJ Harvey and John Parish album today (it was a Spending Weekend). I don't know what I think about it, except for Cracks in the Canvas. So I'm listening to another collaboration of theirs, hoping to find clues as to what's great. I do love "Is That All There Is?" and in fact wrote down all the lyrics in my management class the other day when we were talking about 30's transitions. Is that all there is to eyelash extensions?

And now to some homework, and then to some Adventureland!

• Angelene, PJ Harvey

"picture a train heading west"

I tried to find a good quote for this update, and this is just perfect actually, but no one will know why, unless you've read this book. Which is one of my favorites, by the way, not that I'm particularly well read.

I'm cleaning the house because I might have a friend come over tomorrow. It'll be nice to have it clean. It's been a busy week, and it'll be a busy weekend, but at least some portion of my life will be in order. Roomba is telling me "Uh Oh" about something or other. Roomba is so needy sometimes!

Xander's sitting on me because he can tell I'm feeling sad. Ladybird is obliviously walking back and forth on her shelf.

• Galatea 2.2, Richard Powers

daylight is good at arriving at the right time
It's not always going to be this way

Yes, daylight sure is at arriving at the right time. And I am running very late as a result.

• All Things Must Pass, George Harrison

ok

Now the drugs don't work

they just make you worse

but I know I'll see your face again

i'm going to see the hypnotherapist stat. my brain is broken

• The Drugs Don't Work, The Verve

i don't need no rising moon

shame is the shadow of love

I need to get a damn Twitter account if I'm going to be doing this type of updating. All I want to do is quote PJ Harvey lyrics.

I've gotten tons of emails today, but I'm still not sated! I'm an email carnivore, look out!

• Shame, PJ Harvey

Carrie is

listening to PJ Harvey on repeat. Getting ready for the new album.

got to pull myself together

Let's capture a city bus

Jump from burning buildings

While a circle of firemen

Catch us in their net

I like that phrase "pull oneself together." There's some image, from some poem, that it reminds me of. A body, though incorporeal if that's not an oxymoron, spreading across the universe.

Exam today. Exams, presentations, every day.

No, the lyrics only sometimes, or tangentially, or uninterpretably, have to do with the actual post.

• A to Z, Darren Hanlon