Friday, July 03, 2009

the not awesome things

oh the cuckoo
she's a pretty bird
she warbles as she flies
but she never
says cuckoo
till the fourth day of July

Up in the air! It's a bird, it's a plane! It's my life!

It's probably tedious and obnoxious and not good reading at all to read about the good things in someone's life (unless you're my mom). Well, let me assure you, this is an exercise to keep from despairing about the utter directionlessness of everything. The summer is melting me, heart and soul. My sleep doctor, who cost a pretty penny, gave me useless advice about going out in the sun more and taking medicine that costs $150/month. I signed up for eHarmony for god knows why, but now regret it and don't know what I'll do for the next 3 months of rejections. I have a great internship, and it's not what I want. I feel like my entire two years of school has been a waste, but I can't think of anything better to have done, except maybe to have gotten an esthetician's license. I have a new BFF, but he's very, very far away. The number of children in Texas without health insurance is astounding. Only the number living in poverty is more so. I'm starting to begrudge my radio show all the work and exhaustion it causes, and I don't feel like I'm enjoying music like I used to. I listened to the Sugababes on repeat this morning, and now I feel like gagging. And the other day I went to get my cupcake, but they were sold out.

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1 comment:

rena said...

i think everyone goes through these minor crises. i feel like i'm going through one regarding the whole job thing, is this what i want, should i be doing, blah blah blah. it'll come to you.