That's kind of a strange concept, which I guess I'll have to explain a little. The Personality-Mask is not what you use to cover up your personality for the sake of etiquette (and for the sake of not risking that new people won't get your sense of humor). The Personality-Mask is a carefully constructed face you can give the world, and you make it out of real parts of yourself, but it's very artificial so that you start worrying that the real things about yourself that the mask is used to represent are also themselves false. Therefore the Personality-Mask if a flawed concept, and I decided I could use pure Etiquette with strangers and save all my real personality flaws/quirks for good friends, but don't have to worry about strangers assuming I'm boring because I HAVE GREEN SHOES GODAMMIT.
Well, that was boring. But the point is, later I realized a Liz Phair song was stuck in my head, and it had the line "Do you wanna find alligator cowboy boots that just went on sale?" So I thought "Maybe these lyrics are somehow further significant to me," so I looked up the lyrics to see if there was a verse I'd forgotten about that might give me some guidance about what to do next. But unless the universe is working more cryptically than usual, I found nothing of import in the lyrics.
I am determined to have the Best Dreams That Anyone Ever Has Had. In The World. That's right. I feel very proud of my dreams, and I am bitter and obsessed with the idea that Girl Who Is Just Like Me Only Does Everything Twice As Well (a real person) also has better dreams than I do. And I am determined for that not to be true. Dream, Dream like you have never Dreamt before, little subconscious!
Do ya wanna be a polyester bride?
Do ya wanna hang your head and die?
Do ya wanna find alligator cowboy boots they just put on sale?
Do ya wanna flap your wings and fly
Away from here?
- Liz Phair, Polyester Bride, whitechocolatespaceegg